KFC or Burger King that is the question

I ended up having KFC and it was so good, but then I purged as i felt so bad for eating it all.

Why do i do this to my self, I know it's because i have no control over any thing in my life, I'm getting picked on at work, their are things I that I know I'm not gonna get but the world likes to play a craw joke and gives it to the one person who don't what or will be able to handle it, I do this because it is the only thing can control and i feel good for not eating, but when I do eat i feel really bad and i have to purge.

I just don't know what to do any more?????????

Bad Day

Today was a bad day.....

I was doing well i have only had 645 calories today and i came home got board and had a big binge, i did purge and i got rid of it all, but i just feel that all my hard work for the day has gone down the pan, and i will be unable to purge over the weekend as the hubby is back and i don't like to do this kind of thing around him. Plus we live in a small flat so i am unable to hide it from him. 

I have been invited to a BBQ tomorrow at the hubby's mum and i know that i will eat but i will be unable to purge in her house as there will be to many people around. I just don't know what to do????? i will try not to eat all day and drink lots of tea and water and hopefully i can make it through the BBQ and i will only try to eat the veg meals.....

GOOD NEWS the BBQ has been cancelled i can keep to my under 1000 calories per day :) 

Things to do

start eating less
get a pair of jeans 1 size to small
get a tape measure
only eat under 1000 calories

I'm new to this so i still wanna eat all the time, will this ever stop???? i need help